Hello! I am a probationary firefighter at a rural department in Indiana. I am almost positive no one will read these blogs, but that is not my goal. I am writing to express my thoughts, feelings, and inner dialogue in a profession where that is usually not accepted. Especially as a probie, sometimes I feel my voice is lost and I am stuck reeling with my thoughts. So I am using this as an outlet. I just hit the three month mark on my probationary period, after serving as an EMT for six months while waiting for a fire hiring process at my department. This blog is going to be written, straight from mind to keyboard, I will be using some bits and pieces that I write in my notes app during the day when I am full of feelings and need to write it somewhere. There will be no filter, no second guessing what I am writing, purely just what my mind is thinking.